wine and beer

College is taking over my life! Wait, college IS my life... right now anyway. I have so so so so so much to do! I'm not really complaining... that would be dumb, since everyone else I know also has so so so so so so much to do. It's just a fact.
C in CC is this weekend, and so I have to be in the Chapel way more this week than I generally am, ever. (I guess that's not a bad thing; perhaps I'll find God... or money laying on the ground.... or something.)
I just found out today that we have another Theory test next Tuesday (EEEEK)... and I have a Patric paper due next Wednesday. Shit, man.
Yet here I sit, blogging, because I think that people actually read this and care about my life. :P

Whenever I feel like I'm going to freak out, I just imagine Rich barking (yes, barking - like a dog) at some scared freshman up in the S/A office. That just makes my day.

Freedom?

Happy belated Thanksgiving. Mine wasn't so happy, but such is life. Dan and I broke up on Wednesday night. 4 years to the day that we first started having a "thing." Crazy.
It's weird, but I'm not hysterical and crazy like I have been when similar situations have arisen in the past.
I'm terrified of being "alone," not looking forward to loneliness, but I think this is something we both need to do. This is the year... I need to decide what's right for me in the immediate future... what do I want to do next year... where should I go to grad school... stuff like that.
I was hoping to transform our relationship into something more casual, easy, and fun, but he wanted a total break, and well, that's okay. I definitely still care about him.
I've decided that I'm done shedding tears over him or the relationship (that has never gotten me anywhere or made me feel any better). We'll see how these few weeks before Christmas break go... anyone bored? Want to hang out?
I've decided I'm going to make the most of the rest of my time here at GAC, even if I come out sleep-deprived and broke. Hell, I'm already broke... and it's great! Ha.

My grandma (on my dad's side) had a stroke yesterday. She's in the hosptial in NJ - Burdette Tomlin... same place I was born! Dad was really upset last night. I didn't know what to do. I was home alone with him, since Mom and Katie were in TX. It was really scary.
He's still not over his dad passing away a few years ago. That was really rough. I think it's hard for him to be so far away from his family too... Wisconsin to south Jersey. I'm worried too... he drinks too much as it is, and things like this only make it worse.
WELL, sorry all, for this downer e-mail. Had to get it out of my system.

Off to Jackie & Tara's for some bonding and perhaps a drink (yeah, yeah, I know it's Sunday night).

Chocolate Chips

I turned in my sad sad research paper on Pro-Anorexia websites today. I think that is the most interesting topic I have ever written on. Scary though. I sit here and suck on my chocolate chips and think "I could never give up chocolate..." Not anymore at least. I did the whole self-starvation thing in high school... (anorexia is a "side effect" of Ulcerative Colitis, my lovely inherited stomach disease for which there is no cure)... anyway, once I had the Colitis under control, I decided that I really liked food and have been on my way to a better, less bony Laura ever since.
Seriously guys, I love chocolate. I also love cheetos, techno music, and boys who wear clothes from Express for Men... but that's another story.

Ok, so right now I'm procrastinating big time. I actually don't have that much to do, but it seems like everyone else is pretty busy.
I worked out today for a really long time, and it was *awesome*... I almost felt like a real athlete! Ha.
Then I did laundry, and there was NO ONE in the laundry room! I had it all to myself and it went SO FAST. IT WAS THE COOLEST! That NEVER HAPPENS in UHLER! Ok, I'll stop shouting now.

I guess I'm excited to go home for Thanksgiving, although it isn't really much of a break and I'll mostly be doing homework... maybe shopping w/Dan, & eating turkey.
My mom and sister are leaving on Thanksgiving day for Texas for a soccer tourney. Thanksgiving day! Texas! Fuck Texas. Ha. I guess I don't really hate Texas... it's just annoying that they're leaving. I hope I can get to the bars in RF over break with some people... wait a minute, I don't keep in touch with any of my high school friends! Well, ok, Adam and Jess... kind of... but that's pretty much it. You guys free over break? Wanna go to the bar with me?
Seriously. My life is so boring.

Sock Stealer

Up until last night, I hadn't seen 4am in quite a while. Oooh, so very tired... and it's GREAT! It was a long week. I did a lot of procrastinating, registered for my final semester here at GAC (tear!), spent money at the Sigma auction, made jello shots on a Thursday night while trying to study, and went to my first movie in a long time.

I got to see Sarah on Friday night. That was nice. She's not very far away, but our business prohibits us from getting together most of the time. It's always so nice to talk with Sarah, especially about relationship stuff... she really understands what I'm saying. It's reassuring, I guess.

I am really craving Chinese food right now. Damn.

Yesterday night I went over to Jackie and Tara's and we played Uno with drinks... I forgot what a great game Uno is. I gotta bring my old cards back when I go home for Thanksgiving! I also need to hang out with Jackie and Tara more often because they're *awesome* and hilarious.
We wandered down to Patty's after a while... Megan came along, which was really cool 'cause I don't see her much these days either.
Watched the Organ Donors for a while at Patty's... they played "Clocks" by Coldplay.... a song very close to my heart. *sigh*
It was funny to note that I knew almost everyone at the bar... that's what you get in a small town. That makes me laugh.

We found our way over to one of the AV apartments around 11 or so. Played P&A (I learned how to play on Thursday and had forgotten by last night), so drunk Bjorn had to reteach me and I think I had more fun listening to him be drunk than actually playing the game. What a character. Then I stepped in someone's spilled alcohol... so Bjorn loaned me a sock. I still have it. I should give that back.... I'll wash it first. Met Bjorn's friend Brian, who was very cool. Dan didn't talk all that much, but I guess that's nothing new.
Ended up staying over there until 3:30, half sleeping on one of the wonderful couches and watching like four episodes of Family Guy. It was really fun for me. I hadn't seen a lot of those people in quite a while. I guess I missed them.
Then today, I wrote an entire research paper while hung over and more tired than I've been in a long time. It sucked, yeah, but I just kept thinking as I was typing... "man, college is great."
I've had so much more fun here than I did in high school... of course it's been rough sometimes, but over all it's been wonderful. I plan to make the most of the rest of this year... it's going by so damn fast I can hardly keep up.
I'm really going to miss you, GAC.

Monkeys on the Corner

Sometimes I really hate Sundays, because all I can think about is the rapidly approaching Monday. I think I'm sick of school. Or maybe I'm sick of pressure. I've finally decided that I'm taking a year off before grad school. I thought that I'd decided that before, but then I talked to Patric and he tried his hardest to convince me to give it a shot this year.
What he doesn't understand is that if I don't *want* to try and write a super personal statement, if I don't really want to be proactive and get my apps done, I really don't have a chance of getting in. That said, I really don't want to spend money that I don't have on application fees! Seriously!
I just want to finish this year, get some job... volunteer someplace or get an internship at a museum... and during my time off I will have time to write a perfect personal statement and send in my apps well ahead of time. Plus, by then I'll have some experience in the field.

I need to remember that I can't go through life worrying about the future, and that's all I've been doing lately. Yes, I really do want an advanced degree... but I don't think it's necessary that I get it RIGHT AWAY.
Sorry, I'm ranting.

Becky called today. It was so good to talk to her. I really miss her a lot. She's having so much fun and visiting all these countries. SO jealous. We talked a bit about the Euro and how it's really strong... so strong that it is supposed to take over the top currency spot currently held by the dollar. That would mean some big changes for America, considering our gigantic deficit. Damn Bush. I tried to talk to Dan about that earlier, and he didn't want to care about anything political today, but the anthropologist/sociologist in me really needed to talk about it... we got to have a fight instead. Hooray.

Going to an Ethiopian restaurant tonight with Lambda Alpha. I doubt I'll be able to eat anything. Yay for the stomach disease. Ulcerative Colitis is awesome. (Sarcasm.) I still want to go and see it (cultural experience), but I'm worried that I'll feel all left out and angry after watching everyone else eat for an hour.
I wish I knew some other people with stomach issues like mine... I know they're out there. The stats on this disease say that it is becoming more and more common. I just can't find them.
Hmm. I'm going to go do something else distracting.

Holy Fire Hazard, Batman!

So, I went to the "mega mall" with my brother this afternoon. He's 30 and lives with his girlfriend in the cities. I don't get to see him very much... busy guy - a journalist.
Anyway, we went to the mall. I've never seen that place so crowded - seriously! There were loooong lines just to get into the parking ramps, and a lot of the ramps were closed (full).
We met at Krispy Kreme... took me a while to find it 'cause I didn' t know where it was.
Then we had to find a place to eat. Of course, all of the real restaurants had long waiting times, so we went to this Crepes place on the first floor. It was pretty good. I had a couple bites of a strawberry one! First time I've had strawberries in... mmm, maybe 7 years. Yeah.

Then we decided to shop for my sister's birthday. Man, that girl is hard to shop for. She doesn't like anything... she dislikes quite a bit (and complains all the time). She hates shopping, so a gift card was out of the question. We looked everywhere.
I finally got her a shirt (on super sale - woohoo!) at Urban and Jay found something at the Gap. Cross your fingers and hope she doesn't turn her nose up.

Went to DQ after that and tried their new Pumpkin Pie blizzards. I liked it... but I have this weird pumpkin pie obsession, so that's no surprise.

Then I got to see the engag. ring that Emily wants! It was so exciting!! Jay got to see all these different diamonds. Ok, now I know that diamonds are expensive, but it was ridiculous! I'd rather buy a car... or a trip to Europe... or maybe pay for a wedding. Y'know... why buy something so gaudy and gigantic when you need money to get married? I think Jay shares this view... he said that if he actually gets the ring we looked at with a nice big stone, they won't get married for a while. Sad. I want to be in wedding. :P

So I'm back here and everyone is gone, except for Kristen, who's doing homework.
I have to register soon. Maybe I should decide what classes I'm taking. Hooray for staying in 2 weekends in a row. You'd think that since I'm finally 21 now, that I'd go out more. Not the case. Pathetic = me.

Uno

Hmm... so this is a blog, huh. I like to read these things off of other people's AIM profiles... it's a great time waster when I don't want to do homework. Decided I'd try my hand at blogging today. We'll see how it goes.
Big Soc Theory test today. I think it went okay. (I only studied for 14 hours!... not consecutive, don't worry.) I think that's the most time I've ever spent studying for anything.
I don't even want to think about what that final is going to be like.

So I'm trying to do laundry right now, but doing laundry in Uhler is no easy task. I wish I would have known where the laundry room was located when we had housing sign up last year... I definitely would be living on the west side instead of the stupid east side. Oh well. Listen to me complain.
I actually have to go to a lecture pretty soon... so I'm going to try to figure out how to post this and then go get my laundry... then it'll be off to the Anthropology lecture. (Woot Anthro.)
I am not a dork.